Twelve cries

Love Is it lost? In this world of chaos Any path portrayed Hangs a tag price named Or no way will love stay Now tell me world Having given so much shade Explain to me what you Observe love to be That will conquer all I’ve seen Fill the cracks in my soul In believing there’s still hope Infinity Loving free from costing No Love Lost Loving with a cause

“Hello Gorgeous” I hear some days What is gorgeous? Should I be happy for the name? Is this protection from deceit? Protect my heart from a thief? I can’t afford another break in To my heart but gave in Isn’t love what we’re made for Me and you But I hoped too soon So this love I’ll try again but look within this time & bring to life the smile once dead “Hello gorgeous, it’s nice to see you smile again..”

Sometimes the best advice hurts the most, Sometimes the advice you give stays on repeat, Sometimes people retreat. Nothings perfect, never will be... When they said we were sinners, What did you expect to see? I think that's why I fall in Love, So Imperfectly..

On this journey My little pure being Beside me little does he know My son he guides me Clears my vision of worldly illusion The purpose of my being On this earth What good can I bring My concern… Bringing love to earth is the great need Try again do not give up refuse to bend In your weakness call & he sends all In strength through faith Love with grace

Requiring me to self shrink As if my strength is choice of clothing Black or pink Please comprehend what this asks Of 1 woman 1 mother 2 hands 1 heart 2 feet This strength you perceive Was viciously made Forced to be clothing Of the woman before thee A woman so soft & hearty Yet cold if need be Protection from deceit Luxury of Femininity This is my Need Safe space to lay vulnerability Playing Mother & Father to my precious seed Can I ever trust again & let my femininity mend

Done reaching out No more pretending I have no feelings Guess it’s time to cry it out Then keep it pushing Thought wrong again Thought you were down Downer than most at least But life’s knocked me out One, too many times Three hits and I’m spinning Fuck it I’m out & with each step I walk away Inside I’m torn a little deeper

When I’m gone May crazy little details of me Put a smile to your face May your heart beat warmth forever Filled with memories Silly kinks & I love you’s I would say

White clouds blue sky Favorite view to Calm my mind in Pull away from my sins Let myself envision Future vibin life I choose to ride in Raise my boy & Show him a good man Is what a man Of God is

Wish I could give what you need & love with patience But I’m weak Can’t stand to see you Move then lose Refuse to choose your dreams Open up bout’ what you love & who you want to be You know life’s not easy But please believe Sometimes it takes a team To evolve & grow Persevere through low blows & let our inner demons know When it comes to you & I Inner demons eat defeat Better find a place to hide Aim to murder demons pride

This climb to my rising Growth with God’s guidance Self sacrifice My own ego & pride Oh mountain me It’s time to move Miracles come afloat Overcoming the doubt in your don’t Ignore negativity Strength is positively Vivifying inside Moving The Mountain in I

Sick & Tired of your rude ways Picking at mind Confused brain I sit in silence & just stare straight Telling my heart not to be afraid Because we know what this is looking like The way you manipulate play with reality To make me feel weak Defend myself & you walk right out No acknowledgment of what I speak Why or how I think So sadly can no longer turn my cheek Goodbye what could have been if you let me in

My husband will be my puzzle piece He & I Our struggle Our biggest blessing Gods guidance Where we step toward Better together Choosing love & Gods favor Blessed with my puzzle piece To live a life purposefully